Thursday, August 6, 2009
Good Chicken News!
How It’s Going- Inside The House
We didn’t come together through any formal articulation of principles or goals, although we could easily write it up after the fact. I suspect there’re quite a few households following similar practices, especially in these harrowing times.
The story of how it came together is pretty simple, so I’ll stretch it with some personal history. For years and years, I’ve thought about the future- what skills or resources I’d personally bring forward to some unspecified time when, unwed & child-free by choice, I couldn’t work at all for a living, couldn’t find barter or buyers for my artwork, beloved junk, or miscellaneous skills, or was just plain old tired of struggling through another search for another landlord, new roommates to help carry the cost, another new low-level, low-pay job, or another stretched meal or bus fare.
It was the late 1960s, 70s & 80s. There were plenty of back-to-the earth & environmental groups & communes. There were vital, informed revolutionaries & outside-the-box thinkers. The majority of my parents’ friends, & later my own, were artists & teachers & activists & musicians. Funds for college and living expenses were available to me, thanks to my grandparents & parents foresight & planning; federal school money was easy & abundant if they hadn’t.
Clearly, I had every opportunity to develop an off-grid, out-of-the-mainstream, naturally sustainable, biocompatible lifestyle- but it meant nothing to me, then, even though I was trepidatious about the future. I didn’t have the knowledge or the skills to do something like that on my own, I was on my own, and I wasn’t interested in the communes I knew of.
I was certainly living outside of the American middle-class mainstream, but I was just as certainly living off mainstream crumbs- social services, unskilled jobs, unreliable rental housing. Very lucky breaks gave me occasional paying theater & art jobs, a tiny steady income and a terrific studio for almost 20 years. I never made more than a few thousand a year on the books, but it was plenty enough to keep me going, with constant community involvements to keep my mind & spirit occupied.
The people I knew were either property owners with retirement savings & investments & paying professions, expectations of inheriting a house or money, living with their kids, or people in the same no-equity/no-skill/no-off-spring boat as me. When I asked about what they planned for the future, the usual answers were along the lines of “work till I die” or “ I don’t know & I don’t want to think about it.” Oh, and then there’s the positive visualization, whatever happens is meant to be, and California-style karmic justice hopefulness- another form of expectations of inheritance, really.
There were friends who liked my dream of “circling the wagons”- trailors or RVs or apartments we owned, or safely mortgaged, all together- a circle of shelters where we’d grow older & older, together. As one friend said, “ If one of us lost our eyesight, & another lost their hearing, together we’d equal a 30 year old!”
But the interested friends weren’t interested in doing anything practical toward that goal. By now, they’re all healthy & independent & alone.
The only thing I could imagine doing personally was more of the same- and the only thing I could see at the end of the same was growing older & older in an atmosphere of a diminishing social security benefits, rising energy, food & health costs, tighter & tighter rental housing, and final ruin.
The dread got stronger sometime in my mid- or late 40s. I noticed I was careening into elder-hood without a paddle, so to speak. Or a boat, for that matter. I knew that my main job, funded as it was by private and government grants, was pretty precarious, and that I had no other means of providing a living for myself, outside of pumping cappuccino or clerical or maid work- the province of much younger people these days.
So I went to school and became a registered nurse. The decision, while quite far from any of my previous experience or dreaming, was easy. In nursing, it doesn’t matter how old you are, you can always get a wide variety of jobs, it takes only two concentrated years of training, it pays well, and it’s a personally meaningful job.
Once I had a regular income, I wanted a house of my own more than anything else; I didn’t- and don’t- want to face an older age under the roof of a landlord who could throw me out if they wanted to. Or could die before I did, or have to sell the place, or had kids who wanted to move in, or wanted out of the landlord business- forget it.
A fortunate confluence of events- a good credit rating, low prime interest rates, parents who’d (thankfully) cover the closing costs, and a bank-impressive job title and salary, let me take a low interest fixed-rate mortgage with nothing down on my dream houses: three one-hundred-plus year old houses, one of them habitable, on one lot near the aging downtown of my bankrupt city.
I continued – and continue!- to want to share the wealth and the labor, if not my Dream. My beloved mate- we’d married each other by then- is no more competent at building and gardening and resource planning than I am, which is not all, and a lot less interested than that.
So, over the first four or fives years here, I invited three different people to come on board. In words, we shared similar visions. In practice- well, not.
Two people left after high-speed falls on part of my bottom line: feeling bad or angry or whatever isn’t an excuse for antisocial behavior or personal insult- although it might be a reason, which we can work with together. One of them left dollar and material debt; one a persistent bad taste. One- a Treasurer- kept common house finances, like the mortgage for God’s sake, on his list of Things We Don’t Talk About. One turned from helpful participant to flat-out thief, and was dispatched in short order; a fourth- not a full invitation, but a short-term well-defined trial this time- turned out to be a sexist, vulgar, incompetent, desperate, lying, well-read fraud. I booted him in even shorter order. I’d known two of them pretty well over the years; we had common history and cohort.
Then, over a year ago now, came Patian. She’s our current treasurer. She’s grown in to a much expanded position: she runs the functional household, pays the bills, stocks the shelves, directs the Middle House (Patian’s House) building, finds major goods and materials we need- free or very, very cheap- and keeps the car and truck running.
I’d known her for a month or less when I made the offer. We’d shared an immediate sense of knowing each other, recognizing something essential. She said, “you know, our dreams aren’t the same, but they’re similar- I think we could help each other.” She was right.
Another farmer’s joined us, too, although he lives at the river and has outside jobs. T. He's a heart-felt communitarian, with the skills we don't have- he builds & mechanics & notices what needs to be around here & does it. He’s a Finder like Patian- he brings food & furniture & lumber & firewood & appliances and knowledge, plus a big dose of creativity. S is another: we became great Friends, sharing many common interests, including cultivating herbs & food & singing the Old songs- now we practice garden sharing, labor and harvest and knowledge.
The central three of us pool our available resources- P & I all our cash, Q an agreed sliding-scale dollar bank deposit every month. We’ve made a lifelong oath- to stay on board with all we’ve got. I’m the only one of us with outside employment, and the only one of us really interested in the gardens or my fuller dream, although Q & P support me theoretically. Sort of.
The marvelous thing is that we’re doing it. We’ve fallen heavily on each other’s various bottom lines and pulled ourselves up and worked it out. We’ve reached a sort of balance regarding house/garden tasks and common holdings. I can work part-time without stress about bills and payments and budgets, time left for art and science and exploration. Q’s left alone to his musings and arts and writing, and Pash has a place to live and care for. And, of course, whatever happens, we have each other.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
A Hero
I saw the documentary on television once; the trailors are almost as good- this is a true hero of our day, a Champion, & a brilliant mad man who has a really workable solution (climate changes aside, unfortunately) to housing, garbage, & stepping lightly on the earth. I watched the whole thing partly agape & askew in wonder & frustration at what he went through in New Mexico, out loud laughter, and tears of joy & regret, At least it's POSSIBLE.
Trying To Understand the World
His essays present a very clear understanding of the global economic, ecological,and industrial situation we're living through.
I’ve already passed along to many people printed versions of a letter he wrote to the activist community- finally, I found an online link to it: http://www.redroom.com/articlestory/getting-beyond-the-narratives-an-open-letter-activist-community . The use of magic and spell-making as metaphor in this letter explains numbers of issues to me- like forgetting your baby in a hot car, or of course thinking the Emperor MUST have clothes on. The power of the right/wrong duality he explicates, too- I hope to talk about this with you if you can read it.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Re-directions
I started a web page,then abandoned it; I'd hoped for an organizational tool that'd give me a simpler format for categorizing projects & subject thoughts. I still want that, but I realized that continuing in whatever way to verbalize, challenge, & refine my thinking & intentions is what I truly want from this effort. And anyway, the easy web format was just too hard. SO, I'll continue this as a diary of the project, chronicles of my slow schooling.
Last May, Q & I invited a new partner. In exchange for ownership of the Middle House, she's running the household(s). We pool our meager finances, she pays the bills & keeps food in the house. She's a talented Finder- we now have a working gas stove - vintage 1920, I think- with no foolery we can't see & fix ourselves. She's found rugs & food & a running red pick-up truck & building materials, which the great carpenter she found is using to finish the Middle House. It's actually nearing completion- now insulated, electrified, and sheetrocked; the imminent plumbing installation will include a branched drain graywayer system. (the carpenter found copper pipe & fittings enough). Over a year later, we all remain committed to each other & the household- if not specifically my own premises, leanings, & project (she believes the economy will "recover", frinstance).
The Gardens grow- I backed off from looking at green abundant results & have gone to improving the soil & planting beds, which is sustaining a new array of herbs & medicinals.
We acquired a dog, which eliminated the existing chickens; 5 little peeps are growing daily in the kitchen dry sink, so we should have eggs by Sept- October.
More to add to the library catalogue, different planting methods- lasagna gardening now- and much personal development. I backed off from the 40 hrs a week- money just ain't worth my time, once the mortgage is paid- and am now working 24 hr/week night shift. Much better- except that I've got to leave for work now. So more later - a lot to explore. A lot to tell.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Directions
definately time for a little more clarity! SO. A new sidebar with more definition of the History of the Project- reflecting my slightly more developed thinking is in the making.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Keeping Body & Spirit Warm
Well, first of all, we're really, really cold. Hunkering down in chilly misery. SECOND of all, I'm having a welcome burst of creativity: keeping warm with recycled wool sweaters, washed in hot water to felt them, then making vests, boots, skirts, and mittens; the effect is WARM, colorful, and fabulous if you go in for that kind of thing; I might post pics later, but for now:
June 26 2009 update: The felting sweaters (and blankets) is a winner, hands down, flat out, over-the-top. My favorite is the boots- socks, really, up to the knee, triple layer soles. The sleeves of sweaters are perfectly suited for it: the sleeve cap goes over the knee, the wrist end is a good match for the ankle, tapered down pretty much like a leg, and the body of the sweater plenty enough for the soles & foot. The FIT, of course, depends on the size of the original sweater and how much initial surface area is taken up by the felting. They could become boots- I'm defining boots here as footwear with a sturdy enough sole to go outdoors in wet weather- by coating the soles with contact cement. A friend, Richard, did that with cheap felt boot liners, and voila! they're waterproof. I hope to learn how to cut & stitch tires for soles, or anything else for that matter; old rubber bath mats aren't bad- easy to cut, easy enough to stitch to the sole- but I really didn't like the look of it, so abandoned that idea, at least temporarily.
VESTS turn out to be immediately very simple; a cut through the front of a sweater with the sleeves cut off- I only lightly felted the vests or not at all; a vest needs to be big, for layering. The sleeves turn out to be mufflers: the sleeve caps sewn together with the wrists hanging down delight me, referencing as they do the casual preppy look of a sweater draped over the shoulders.
SKIRTS are more difficult than I imagined. It's been tough to find sweaters long enough to suit me; I like straight ankle or mid-calf length, one color, & most sweater bodies I found aren't long enough for that, given that they need to be cut below the arm holes. I made one incorporating the sleeves by cutting them off at about 8 inches, turning them to the inside, & stitching them closed at the bottom to make a pocket. The shorter skirts, of course, are easy: cut off the top, tie the waist if needed- sometimes they're snug enough to hold up by themselves, especially over pants or more skirts.
WRAPS are easiest made from the blankets, given the larger surface area. A straight stole makes a good lap warmer or shoulder wrap; bigger pieces go for ruanas.
ARM & LEG WARMERS, something I hadn't thought about before I started cutting & saw the possibility immediately, are easily made from sleeves. Narrower sleeves need to be opened up a little at the cuff for leg warmers, in order to accomodate a human foot; happily sweater sleeves are usually stitched closed, so it's easy enough to pick out the seam, leaving a finished edge.
Arm warmers only need to have the sweater detached at the shouders, course; fingerless gloves require a few stitches in the opening to make a thumb loop which not only accomodates the thumb but holds the cuff down over cold knuckles.
There are, of course, a jillion more possibilities for using sweaters; I was surprised at the dearth of suitable wool sweaters in the thrift stores, but realize my definition of suitable includes my rather narrow esthetic. I have in slow process a patchy dress for Pash, who likes that look- & I have many scraps left from the pieces I already made. Someone who's more in to muticolor, brighter colors than I am, someone who'd not mind acylic or polyester (those materials don't felt, by the way) would find a wealth of material in any thrift store in the U.S. I imagine.
THE FURNACE- or rather the lack of one- has another unexpected benefit. We're just a PG&E notice promising us a 20% gas deduction as a reward for using so little of it. The only gas appliance we have now are the stove & water heater.
More on Bicycle Powered Electricity
This man, in his 50th decade, pedals 265 volts.... enough to run a power saw, a computer..... The generated energy CAN be saved by hooking the generator to a battery . Apparently Wavy Gravy has been using a bank of bicycles hooked to generators for some years at events at the Hog Farm ; they had one on Gilligan's Island, too, to say nothing of the Flintstones ( thankyou, Alex!). The general downer word I can find on this kind of self-generated energy is that it's "not worth it", "worth it" being quantified as worth it in terms of $, $ & personal efficiency, and sustaining our typical U.S. personal energy consumption. WELL. Let's look at this , and other alternatives to energy consumption, in terms of human cost, earth cost; I think the balance is clear..... whether or not we pedal our own energy needs, alternatives are clearly the most "cost effective" when we look at cost other than $.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Bicycling To Energy Independence
I haven't set this up yet. Still hooked in to PG&E. BUT even the thought of producing our own power through our own power has got my imagination- and daily practice- moving in a stronger direction. When I see the little useless lights on equipment- even when the equipment's turned off- I now unplug it, imagining "ohhhh boy; that light on all night is going to cost us quite a lot of pedaling...." The imagination of living with children, saying "Of COURSE you can watch TV, of COURSE you can play on the computer all you want- just pedal for the power!" has me laughing whenever I think of it; not so much laughter thinking of my own use, of course, but getting there- check out the links for more information on this exciting idea.... and there're a lot more to see with a simple search.
PS: sorry for the unusual font change.... can't seem to get it all the same size.
Sunday, December 30, 2007
What happened next……
Chickens: we lost another chicken to a night critter- didn’t put em up soon enough that night. We’re still getting eggs from the red hens; about 4/wk… surprising in this time of little light…. We didn’t expect regular eggs again till spring or so. The remaining white hen, Stripes, molted this year; looked like a frail old chicken for a minute, but’s now back in full henny feather.
Winter Garden: I planted in back, against my better planning, thinking I’d just put the fencing back around the plots….. well, it wasn’t nearly high enough, and the chickens had a Great Feast. We didn’t. In fact, if we were solely food-dependent on our winter harvest and what we stored from fall & summer, we’d be living on a few dried tomatoes, figs, grapes, and three giant zucchini; eggs, once in while; preserved lemons; wild salads, mostly sour grass; a few wild-seed crackers, including naturalized wheat and millet (about 2 cups worth); herbs & herbal teas, of course; about 10 lbs of potatoes; nasturtium capers; uncured olives, 34 of them packed in curing salt; and a few gallons of harvested rainwater.
I console my harvest-seeking self with the realization that this is MUCH better than last year, and next year is sure to be even more….. and my “told you so” self with one does what one can, and keeps on walking the walk, no matter.
Infrastructure: still slowly tooling along, but have moved back to the Front House for main living… front house with electricity, running water…. heat…. and moved almost all Stuff from the Middle, realizing that it’ll be MUCH more efficient to lay flooring and insulation with Stuff out of the way….. we’ve dug the deep trench and installed the conduit for electric to the Middle House, too, and started painting the Front and almost finished the front gracious stairs & porch….. one does what one can.
Then the lot…. Much social and inward change; composting old sour emotional shit, family relationships, old habitual un-needful behaviors; talk about Stop Shopping! (http://www.revbilly.com/…. Check out the music while you shop the site) I’ve begun to stop shopping in the aisles of discontent, going-nowhere-I-want-to-be-relationship; what a deep breath that is…
And what a hard road to travel; at least it’s clearly lit- the road signs say yes, keep going yr own way, focus on the vision, keep on keeping on, no matter what other’s want or expect that’s off the road- they’ve dropped off, gone their own ways without me; as Dr Seuss said, “those who mind don’t matter; those who matter don’t mind”…. So here’re me & QR, snuggled down in deep blankets, walking the walk with a whole lot of sweaters & coats on whenever we HAVE to get up. $…. After gaining, from family & friends & work, thousands of dollars, and then losing thousands to old debt and generosity and perfidy, I’ve decided to work full time. I’ll make a lot more $; I plan to pay for the work to be done, pay others who need the $ and want, and can, and WILL do the work we need. This has been a tough nut to compost…. I love sharing resources and visioning and what I think is building a future and an immediate Life…. What’s happened is, I appear to have cast my pearls before swine, and the swine have choked on em & spit em back in my face… So. I often struggle in relationship the ways I’ve often struggled in the rest of life: unsure what’s real, accepting what’s clearly not… going with someone else’s flow, at the strugglous expense of my own. Clearly not efficient or healthy or happy when I’ve so much I want to share, and so much to do…. and clearly an old habit, diverting from my own path in favor of someone else’s problems, part of the tough process of digging deep and letting the old relationships and unhappy habits go their own way without me; for the moment I’ve got my eyes on my own River, sailing along.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Naturalizing Living Food & Medicine
As for the the poppies and tobacco, we'll see how it went this spring!
And as for the tires: I noticed that the railroad tracks here run mostly South to North, giving them really good sunlight potential where there aren't too many trees or cliff walls in the way. AND they're graded so water flows naturally into the rail bed, which is saved from annual flooding by the leveling and draining gravel spread under the tracks.
Of course, there's a marvelous tradition here, planting on the railroad bed: who doesn't remember the romatic story of old time engineers tossing poppy seeds along their routes, spreading golden California comfort and color? Now it's a bent gray-haired old woman leaning on a stick, stumbling along the tracks with multiple plastic bags and possibly some interesting pieces of wood or iron or purslane.......
Well, the tires. I saw a few scattered along the tracks during my usual course of busyness. They stayed there for almost one year before I made a move. I'd also scouted very easy access to the tracks, places where I could park and walk easily carrying a gallon of water, a little soil, and some straw. Places that already had tires lying around, or, in one place, could be easily rolled into position. I set up three tire planters in three locations along the tracks, using tires that were already sitting there and as much local dry brush and earth as I could find, supplemented with rich compost, hauled-in water and straw. Before planting, I came back a few times with a gallon of water, sometimes two, in plastic milk jugs; I packed the dry material tightly into the rim, more tightly each time, and poured more water in; the dry material takes some time to soak up the water, but eventually soaks up a LOT.... I wanted that water stored in the wet straw rim of the tire so the roots could suck it up later on, like the five-gallon bucket planting referenced here earlier (post 5/22/07), without the holes drilled in - I figured the rims would hold the excess water, with the rest running through the bottom- so the drilled holes were uneccessary. Every time I went back- at my whim & convenience, having stowed the water bottles, straw & soil in the trunk- I tested the wetness with a hand or a stick; when it'd stayed moist for a few days, I planted poppy seeds in the soil on top. I saw them all sprout! So why were they a bust? Like the song says, "the angels took him away, poor boy......" only in this case, I think it was The Man, who'd decided to clean up the tracks. So they were a bust.... the tires were gone one day, along with some rolls of heavy gauge wire and bark I'd been eyeing. Well, gone but not forgotten- I've yet to strew seeds on the tracks, or try the tire planting in corners of the city... maybe I'll try two or four inch plants this time, so they don't just look like old tires with dirt and a few weeds in. And strew a few poppy seeds, in memory of the old engineers. I hope you will too.
Tire Planting
Fears of heavymetal contamination are groundless; washed tires contain heavy metals, but they're tightly bonded with the rubber... and not likely to be taken up by plants, with the exception of zinc- contained in tires, easily taken up by plants that like it, and an essential human nutrient.
The photo above is J.A.R., a Mexico City Punk Collective that's reclaiming and greening the abandoned Commons; I couldn't find a photo, but they use tires regularly.
Friday, November 9, 2007
Guerilla Gardening
Here's the site with the flowers-in-a-grate picture: http://weburbanist.com/2007/08/21/urban-ecological-subversion-the-art-of-guerilla-gardening-in-public-spaces/.
Naturalizing a Community Pharmacy
I know this is a good time of year for poppy planting, but not so sure about the tobacco- I'm thinking that if the native is now setting seeds, it's the native time to strew them around, since that's what the plant's doing anyway. As for the Aloe Vera- probably the most immediately and universally useful of the three I'm concentrating on- I've got some pretty good pups going, but haven't found good, useful places to put them yet; maybe under public trees that're already regularly cared for. We'll see.
At Home In The Houses
But I'll tell you, probably more than once: there is very little more satisfying, more empowering, than doing it with my own hands. I can do so much more than I ever thought!
AAARRRGGGGGHHHHH... Still Harvesting
Gramma Mable, my Father's mother, set up a kitchen where they spent the summers camping out- and she'd can the wild fruits. While I long to just go to Safeway and pick up some potaoes & greens, I feel like a traitor to myself when I do it- the rhythm of the hands in the earth, the rising growth, is like midwifing our food, and, in turn, midwifing my independence from The Man, midwifing connection with a deeper reality than TV news and shiny supermarket sustenance. Pain in the ass is even a welcome facet of the process- and I have a lot more sympathy for the hard-working squirrels.
Fall/Winter Food Garden
SO. Peas follow the corn, delivering nitrogen and nitrogen-fixing bacteria back into the corn-depleted soil. Plenty good compost to dig in, too. I'll keep the tomatoes going until they drop out on their own- they MIGHT turn out to be perennials in this climate- we didn't put in any hybrids, so they ought to stay true to their sweet red/purple/yellow natures if they make it... and if they do, they might be a good candidate for naturalizing. Imagine wild tomatoes hot from the vine!
I'm digging new beds up front for lettuce, spinach, onions & garlic (in with the roses to keep off fungus- I hope) and cabbage, broccoli, kohlrabi, beets, carrots, kale, collards and more potatoes and peas. There's better winter light in front, so they should flourish. If I get em all in in time, we'll have a dark leafy green Christmas with red & gold winter root crops.
I'm loving this ever-bearing cycle of food crops. No, it's not enough to keep our bellies full all by itself, even with the addition of plentiful eggs (until the daylight gets too short for their laying cycle)- but it sure is plenty to keep my spirit- and my hands- rooted in the Miracle.
Friday, November 2, 2007
Won't Be Water But Fire Next Time
Purple Harvest
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Credit Where It's Due
They've also issued an important Alert regarding antibacterial soaps and other products containing Triclosan- which is all of them. I've been interested in antibacterial products since working as an Infection Control Nurse; I wondered whether these pervasive products would promote ARMs (anti-bacterial resistant microbes) in the same way antibiotics do. I found plenty research on the subject- the answer is NO, there's no danger of promoting ARMs from using those products; Triclosan, the common anti-bacterial agent in soaps and plastics, is powerful enough that it kills everything in its path, rather like bleach but easier on the skin. I also found out that it's really unneccessary to use antibacterials instead of plain old soap- the best cleaning is accomplished by friction and the slipperiness of soap, which effectively sluices off dirt and microbes.
Unfortunately, killing microbes isn't all Triclosan does. According to the Water Dept, small amounts of Triclosan are showing up in our water supply. While not apparently harmful when used on skin, it's potentially deadly when ingested. No real danger from the tiny amounts we ingest daily from the overloaded public water supply- the problem is, Triclosan is stored in the body rather than safely excreted, meaning it builds up over time to potentially toxic levels..... and there's no way to completely remove it from our water or our bodies.
What to do? First of course, stop using antibacterial products. We don't need em. Second, harvest rainwater- it's still the purest drinking water around!
Alma: Homeless, With Garden
I never noticed her until yesterday. It wasn’t the big moving pile of clothes & blankets, or the beach umbrella cocked at an angle to keep out the sun, or the overflowing grocery cart holding the umbrella up that opened my eyes to her- it was the garden. A little row of tin cans with green, green billowing out: tiny purple flowers, a few green onions, a potato vine…. obviously carefully tended to.
I parked in the lot behind her and walked over to her bench; she was bent double over her big lap… sleeping? Dead? Will she mind an intrusion?
Excuse me… Ma’am? Hello? I knocked on the back of the bench, the closest she has to a door to her home… Hello?
She unfolded slowly, blinking at me- Yes?
Hello- my name is Pam. I noticed your beautiful garden….
Oh, thank you!
Her face is enormous, round; yellow sclera and an unnatural golden glow to her brown skin; hepatitis, for sure…. usually accompanied by abdominal pain, nausea, and swelling… her feet and ankles, covered only by white socks, are huge; partly healing and newer open sores visible on her calves. Front teeth missing….. and her Smile! Her face opened to it like the sun coming up; no, she seemed not to mind my intrusion.
What’s your name? I held out my hand; her answering fingers are long, delicate, strong-looking; her palm over mine is gentle, no pressure…. blackened nails, dry crusty skin- My name is Alma. How nice to meet you.
She has the gentlest voice, soft, but carrying over the traffic sounds; a British accent. Gracious, kind- the voice of a Lady or a benevolent queen.
What do you have growing here? (The onions seem to be leaning over in the little can, very little soil)-
These were planted in sand, but I think someone wanted it, you know. This one is a potato vine- Oh, the flowers are so pretty! I’d like to water them, but they had no water today….
I know where I can get water, Ma’am… may I bring some back to you?
How kind! I could use some water…
Is there anything else you could use? I have some of that waterless handwashing stuff if you like; it’s very good stuff when there’s no water….. Why yes, (gesturing toward her cart with a twinkling laugh) I think I have some in here, but I’m not sure it's still there- people do like to go shopping, you know-
I got home fast as a rabbit on the run. A big jar of water; an Aloe Vera pup planted in a coffee can; another can of soil; a fresh bottle of waterless cleaner…..
Why, hello! How kind of you! Oh yes, I know Aloe Vera….. very good for the skin. I used it when I was working; I’d come home and take off my…. Gentle hands make a scrubbing motion across her face; Take off your makeup? Yes, makeup! And then I’d rub the Aloe on my face; very good for the skin….
Ma’am, I have no wish to intrude- but I think it’s going to rain…..
Yes, good for the garden!
Yes…. good for the garden, not so good for the feet… Ms Alma, I’m worried about your feet…. could you use some shoes?
Oh dear, I have shoes in here! Then her light little laugh….
You see, I’m a nurse- I can’t help but notice these things; do you want to go inside? Do you have the services you need? Do you have a doctor?
My words came out in a rush of anxiety for her, for me, for Us…
Well, I have my social security, and that insurance… what is it… yes, I have everything I need.
Do you want to be inside, Alma? There’re places you could go- Casa de Vallejo is nice-
Oh no, no, no- she’s smiling, shaking her head, looking at her lap- I’d like to buy a little house- just a little one, with a roof over my head and running water… and again that soft little laugh. No, I have everything I need....
Ma’am, I’m so happy to meet you, so glad you welcomed me here- she looked surprised, stumbling over her words- Why, I’m glad I could be here for you to meet!
Me too, Alma. Me too. Thank-you.
Monday, October 1, 2007
Keeping Clean
Safe Home Cleaning
For sometime I've been using baking soda for cleanser- with regular desperate in-betweens with Ajax to get the stains out of the sink & tub. Well, no more! It turns out that borax, lemon juice, salt and vinegar are not only safer- they work just as well! Check it out.
Peak Oil
http://www.netl.doe.gov/publications/others/pdf/Oil_Peaking_NETL.pdf
http://72.14.253.104/search?q=cache:9SOVttckKiAJ:www.projectcensored.org/newsflash/The_Hirsch_Report_Proj_Cens.pdf+peak+oil+government+report&hl=en&ct=clnk&cd=3&gl=us
Interesting, too, that one of our major oil rich families- the Bush Dynasty- is now investing in water-rich land in Paraguay- they now own the world's second largest natural water source.(http://www.progressiveindependent.com/dc/dcboard.phpaz=show_topic&forum=103&topic_id=24247)
Is it really just paranoia that makes me fearful of these people controlling our oil, our water? ....when's control of the air we breathe coming?
Monday, September 24, 2007
Wild Crackers
Here's the winnowed wheat on a plate, still chaffy. I had a big fistfull of wild wheat; this is the grain that fell off when I rubbed it in a big cloth.
Getting all the chaff out was tough- after I'd shaken most of the grains out, I toasted it in a metal sieve over open stove top flame, and more chaff burned off.
It was easy as pie to grind it in the blender- I ended up with about half a cup of flour from a cup of grain.
And here's the final delicious cracker (on the right, in case you don't recognize it). Flour, water, & oil, baked nicely in the oven!
Friday, August 3, 2007
Cornucopia At Kentucky Street Farms
All this probably isn't as astonishing to people who've raised food & flowers & chickens as it is to me; somehow, even knowing that this IS, in fact, how the Earth provides for us, I'm amazed, gratified, and extremely Thankful. It's HARVEST.
Speaking Chicken
Thursday, August 2, 2007
Brains On Cruise Control
What's up with this?!? The Chronicle posited an answer: "brain researchers" ( my quotes) have found that the human brain can, and does, go on automatic pilot. The brain does NOT make any distinctions regarding the importance of what's forgotten- it could be the coffee cup on top of the car; the ice cream melting in the trunk; the baby in the back seat. It doesn't matter- the brain makes no value distinction when on auto-pilot. In fact, the perceived importance of the baby actually makes it easier to forget: we tell ourselves we'd never forget the baby, for god's sake. Thirty six grief-struck parents per year tell us a different story, one I think we need to pay close attention to. Not only so we don't forget our babies or the ice cream- we need to pay attention to this because auto-pilot is a potentially dangerous hypnosis, and we're all vulnerable. What else do we "forget"? What happens to our critical thinking abilities when we're on auto-pilot- accepting the "news" as Truth, buying tainted food & polluting chemical cleaning products, using pertrol-based energy, distractedly listening to political leaders, accepting official counts of US soldier deaths in Iraq as the only ones we need to hear about, choosing the lesser of the evils? How many times have we told ourselves "they'd never let that happen...." probably as many times as we've reasssured ourselves "I'd never do that, allow that, put up with that...." and we do, all of us, over & over again.
As Jim Hogshire (see Poppy Post) reminds us, when we're raised to believe something cannot exist, we don't recognize it, even when it's before our very eyes. Well. Waking Up is obviously very hard. Compassion for ourselves & others is crucial to the process. I think we can do it- recognizing and challenging unspoken assumptions, remembering and evaluating from one day to the next the changing stories political leaders tell us, asking the hardest questions- especially of ourselves- and really hearing the hardest answers, learning to see what's before our very eyes - hey, the coffee smells GOOD!
The Venerable Angel, Poppy
Boy, does THAT ever ring the bell of Truth..... frinstance, did you know that ALL poppies- not just the infamous papaver somniferum- have sedating and analgesic properties? Or that those fine big dried pods we can get from the flower mart could easily be brewed into an analgesic tea? How about the pretty cottage garden down the street.... did you know that nice little old lady is growing OPIUM? I'll bet she didn't realize it, either...... how about the fact that opium poppies naturally grow everywhere in the world except the North & South Poles? How about the fact that opium is by far a better pain reliever than the expensive, MD-controlled synthetics demerol or methadone? AND THAT IT'S LESS ADDICTIVE?!? How about the fact that it's actually legal to grow them in the US ..... as long as you don't use or intend to use them medicinally? And, yes, those really are 90% viable opium poppy seeds on those bagels at Safeway and everywhere else we buy them..... Then, of course, there's the "common knowledge" that producing opium from an opium poppy is extremely difficult; did you know that all you have to do is score the green pods and collect the sticky juice a few hours later? That juice is, yes, opium.
Hogshire reminds us, too, that "the power to relieve pain is even greater than the power to inflict it..... so the government's control of opiates- and its larger effort to deprive anyone of truly effective pain relief (unless they get the government's permission)- is a stunningly crude method of social control. Pain avoidance is a powerful motivator." And "Ceding control of opium means ceding control of pain relief to the State... which has shown a truly morbid interest in inflicting pain and denying its relief in order to effect social change. This is not a power a free people should give up without a fight."
Of course, we could believe that the government is merely trying to save us from addiction..... after all, who wants to be a strung-out street-living thieving-for-the-next-hit junkie? Not I, said the fly. But is that really the price of effective independent pain control? I think not. For someone like me, maybe so- I have a highly addict-prone streak; cigarettes and coffee have their fangs sunk deeply into my daily routine, and I sure don't want to add another- esp illegal- habit to my repertoire. But not everyone's like me: millions of Americans take addictive pain relievers regularly; codeine cough syrups, vicodin, norco, codeine pills, demerol, fentanyl, dilaudid..... and millions of those pain-relieved Americans are NOT addicted. In fact, opiate use rarely leads to addiction when used solely for pain control.
Well, the next time you wake up in the middle of the night with a tooth-ache, or sprain an ankle with no medical insurance, or suffer from debilitating menstrual cramps you're told are "all in yr pretty little head" - you MIGHT want to check that nice old lady's garden for some pods to boil up.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Prayer
I feel your tenderness.
Mother, I now understand I have let myself be devoured and I have devoured others and I have vomited out rot.
I feel your forgiveness.
Mother, I now understand that if I think someone has wronged me, I will become a mad junkyard dog ready to tear out the throat of another in your care.
I feel your compassion.
Mother, I now understand that if another has wronged me, and promised to make it right, I remain frightened and bitter until it’s made good, even though the other is also in your Care.
I feel your sorrow.
Mother, you who know above all others how I’ve neglected the Life you gifted me, the long years I’ve forgotten you, the despair I’ve breathed even in your presence,
yet you still recognize me and hold me tenderly in your heart.
I feel your tears mingle with mine and the tears of all beings, our tears that salt the seas and water the earth and fill the blood and breath of all beings in your Care.
Mama, I feel your infinite Love.